What I HAVEN'T learned: Money

Money money money, MONEY

I hate money.

I hate it so much.

I want to punch it in the face.

I want to kill it.

I wish I could tie it to a brick and throw it into a lake.

Or burn it.

All.

Unfortunately, it turns out money IS important. I hate the saying that money makes the world go round, but, it kind of does. Humanity as a whole bases its worth and value off of how much bank people make. If you don't have money, you can't get a house, a car, food, ANYTHING. It's ridiculous, it's unfair-

it's how it will be til Christ comes back.

And this sucks for me, because I don't have alot of money. I work six days of the week and have two jobs, but I also need to pay for my car

and insurance

and my phone bill

and gas

and books

and food

And sometimes it's too much.

And I get scared.

And I start to try to control my resources

and plan it all out

If this money goes HERE, then this can go HERE

SO much stress. I hate it.

And I won't talk about tithing yet, but I just want to say that I have worried about money millions of times, but i'm here right now, and i'm still ok.

I have all the proof in the world to believe that God has my back, no matter what my financial situation. I take comfort in the fact that even when my finances look like a terrible giant, God can overcome them.

There's a song by Sleeping At Last called Heaven Breaks. Some of the lyrics are:

When Heaven meets the Earth,

We will have no use for numbers

to measure who we are or what we're worth.

I'm waiting for that day. I suck at money, it's like a struggle every paycheck. But I know God will make it all work..... someday.