What i've learned: Feeling "used" sucks.

This is the earliest i've written a post. Right now is my "rest time". Haha it's the hour and a half between classes and supper. I feel so relaxed right now. I'm eating oatmeal mixed with peanut butter- it might sound a little weird, but it's so darn good!

Have you ever felt used? Like, sometimes a person will spend time with you, say you are their best friend, say that you're really important to them, and then the next thing you know...

...they just stop talking to you, they stop hanging out with you, they take you off, like you're a shirt, and hang you in the closet til they want to wear you again.

And then you wonder... was it your fault? Are you not cool enough, smart enough, fun enough to want to spend time with? That hurts- when you start to doubt yourself because of someone else. Because they meant alot to you, but you weren't good enough to them.

You were used.

And what you want to happen is for them to realize what they've done to you, to come back to you and apologize, say that you are worth more, they should have NEVER treated you so badly.

That's what you want. That's not what happens.

Or maybe you're the one who tries people on like clothes. You spend a little time with someone, something bad happens, so you throw them onto the floor, and put another shirt on. Maybe you never realized how much this hurts your "friend".

Maybe you try people on, because you were used first.

Maybe you feel terrible, because you are afraid to stay close to people, so you just keep hurting them.

Here's my challenge for you today. For the couple of you who read this, I want you to make sure that every friend or loved one you have knows that you love them, and value them. And I want you to make sure that those who are using you know you love them as well, because the way they treat you should not stifle your ability to love.

But I also want you to know that God really loves you, and will NEVER use you, or make you feel like a nasty old shirt. God is like that one kid who wears the same sweatshirt everyday, because it's so comfortable. So take faith and hope in that.

That's all I got. :)